Love Letters To Myself

Last night, and this morning I watched the film Beautiful Lie’s starring Audrey Tautou, Nathalie Baye and Sami Bouajila. I wasn’t sure what I expected to see, as romantic films are a new venture for me. I hoped that the story wouldn’t be yet another girl meets boy and she messes everything up in the middle, with a bittersweet ending with boy telling girl he loves her after she has apologised. Funny thing is though, this film is quite similar except with a slight character twist and the unpredictable events. It’s a beautiful film, and all fans of Amelie and Coco Before Chanel will love it (especially as the director of the latter film has directed this one). I love it, and highly recommend it.

In fact, after watching it I became inspired to sit and write a few love letters to myself, and I thought about how I could introduce this film to a friend who is an avid film lover like myself – that is the tricky situation I will try to work out… he hates romantic films!

Beautiful Lies (2011)

The idea of writing love letters to myself is something I’ve thought about doing, but I never really sat down and ever planned one or wrote one. I didn’t see the point of writing letters about love since I had no positive understanding of it, and now that I’ve experienced it briefly with a Belgian man it seems I still have a lot more to learn. Besides, I’m 23 – I feel I’ve missed out of valuable years of learning already and I’m not getting any more chances to try again.

What goes in a love letter? How do I start one? How do you make the other person quiver at the sight and sense of your words? These are the questions I’ve been asking myself and to be honest I’m stumped. I can’t say ‘I love you,’ or ‘You are my sunshine…’ as I’ll be writing to myself. I want to feel the words leave my mind and see them on the page. I want my heart to flutter every time I refer to it in the future… I want it to be so fleeting that if I forget, it will brighten up my day when I’m feeling lost, low or bored.

Daily affirmations have come into my head; maybe I can write an extended affirmation and post it to myself? Writing about myself, writing about my body, my mind and the things that make me happy, however I’ll have to limit myself as I don’t want it to be too revealing. The love letter in Beautiful Lies is, well, beautiful. Watching the reaction of the characters’ once they had read the letter themselves was enough for me to wonder what it would be like to receive one. I’ve never had one and I highly doubt I ever would as classic romanticism is hard to find unless you are rich, if you are then you can pay for it.

For the following 7 days, I’m going to test something. I’m going to write several letters of love to myself, and possibly add that little bit extra with letters of self-love back. Who knows what I could find out? This could be a very positive project.

Have any of you written love letters to yourselves? Or sent one anonymously?

Still Unavailable :: Reasons to Stay Single [video]

I’m still feeling the single blues… and this is the first time I have decided on taking the advice of Charlotte from SatC, she said to spend half of the time you were with someone feeling like crap before you get back up and just get on with your life – but obviously if it was a long relationship then give yourself a month tops! For example, if you were in a relationship that lasted 2 weeks, then mourn for a week and move on, but if the relationship was a year… spend 1 – 6 months mourning then get up and be single for a while [that does not mean you should sleep with anyone for the sake of the modern 'single' life] and just have fun.

I saw this video and thought it would be cool to share with you [I've posted this to my pagan blog too] – Part of it is in German, my apologies, I speak German so I understand what’s being said, but I assume the CC works for those of you who want to follow [bare in mind German, Latin, French and the Nordic languages gave birth to modern English so some words and phrases will be easy to pick up - yay!]

As for that, life here seems to be picking up in some areas, like the fact that I start college today! I have a ton of stationary and a few new books on philosophy, World War 1 poetry and magazines to keep me entertained =]

Wish me luck! I’ll blog about it later on…. on tomorrow… ? I downloaded Kasabian‘s latest album so I’m a little preoccupied at the moment… x

I ♥ Fake Magazine!

I this magazine. Papa J had found and sent the link to me and I’ve been hooked all afternoon. It’s like a fusion of VICE and POP, oh Gosh!

It’s a base for artists, photographers, models, fashion victims like myself and creative people with pop and a certain level of zazz.

Click the logo below to go to the website =]

♥♥♥♥♥

My Porn Equivalents

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I must admit, porn isn’t a subject that comes up in my world, and yes i do have my own views on the industry and what it portrays. I’m on the fence, and can’t say its wrong as it helps some folks who normally couldn’t meet or have a solid sexual relationship. It’s a money makin’ business with multi billion growth each year. One of my aunt’s best friends is a famed MILF star and she’s as normal as they come. There are huge cons too, like how young people assume that sex must be loud, nasty and sweaty rather than a gentle love making moment. I’m reading How to Be a Woman by Caitlin Moran and I have to agree with her on how porn has shaped society. No lady can walk around with a jungle in her knickers, you gotta have a well shaped and pruned minge in a thong.  - anyway I’m going off on one… this is not what this post is supposed to be about….

Let’s start again, I don’t watch much porn, and if i do it’s purely research to write about o.O but I do watch TV shows that litterally take my breath away. I don’t mean in a sexual manner… ew…. I’m celibate remember! There are shows that make me want to be part of the story, or shows I would hate to end. do you ever get that feeling with a great show? What are your favourite shows that you’d substitute with porn in an average week?

Here are my porn equivalents!

• The Big Bang Theory
• True Blood
• Sirens
• Sex and the City
• Charmed
• Nip/Tuck
• 90210
• Smallville
• Star Trek
• NY or Miami Ink
• Anything Louis Theroux – he is just amazing and I love his journalistic style, he holds no boundaries!

When I watch these shows, I escape to my room and slide under the covers with a glass of Ribeana. The curtains are closed and it’s just darkness and me. The script is what sends me into a fit of laughter or heart stopping shock… or Bill Compton just saying ‘Sookie’ the way he does with that low vampire tone… Ahhh. True Blood time now me thinks….

So, what are your equivalents?